Happy Father's Day - I miss you

I lost my father 19 years a go and not a day goes by where I don't wish he was here in my life.

A lot of people have asked me what it's like to lose a parent at a young age and I'll be honest with you, it destroyed me.

My father was my rock and the person I knew I could cont on to put a mile on my face. He got me and I was his little girl who took note of his artistic talent and how much he cared about me and my sister. But the day the day he was taken aware from me and my family it reshaped my heart and made me a stronger person. For Steve ❤

He was a beautiful man with a caring heart, he loved his children and made sure that he lived a life to the fullest. I stay strong for him and I want to make him proud of how far I've come on my own.

There's not a day that goes by where I don't think about and him and sometimes I cry not because of sadness , but because I've recognised or heard something which reminds me of him such as Phil Collins as my neighbour was listening to him. Whilst taking this shot  - thank you to self timer.  "You'll be in my heart" came on it reminded me of a memory we shared together when I was 6 . Disneys Tarzan was the last film I watched with him before he passed away from a stroke and the powerful lyrics carried so much signifcance to mine and my fathers relationship - "Just look over your shoulder , I'll be there always "  & " When destiny calls you, you must be strong , I may not be with you. But you got to hold on".

I was unsure whether or not to share this photograph but I wanted to show you that it's ok to let out your emotions out especially if you're going through losing a loved one such as a parent. However these weren't tears of sadness , as I had a flash back to giggle with my father on the sofa as he pretend to be a monkey because he was a silly banana like that.   For those of you who have lost a father, I promise you it will get easier. The anger and pain will disappear and you'll focus on remembering the great memories you shared together.